At last glance of this blog, you saw a pretty teary eyed picture of my heart. I am pretty happy go lucky most of the time, so all the crying was a shock to my system. Suffice to say, things are on the upswing. I am fresh off the heavy meds. Though I miss their potency to relieve the pain, I don’t so much miss the emotional imbalance.
I am creeping out of bed on a more regular basis – to make some coffee, grab a book, turn on some music, read to the kids, play with Selah’s babies. There is still considerable pain just walking. Selah has an awesome portrayal of my walk – arms outstretched for balance, back hunched over, a short stride. It’s really quite a hoot.
Paul’s parents handed the baton of responsibilities over to my brother and mom on Thursday. My mom does the brunt work – preparing meals, taking care of the kids and the house. Dan is a sweet entertainer and makes us all laugh with Little Carrot Man who takes on the world. Selah and Adden especially delight in their uncle’s imagination and games. And Paul…Well, he’s just as amazing as usual. How did I secure such a catch?
As a family, we have been showered with love. Like torrentially poured on! The most delicious food has been made, the sweetest cards and notes written, DVD’s, magazines, and books brought over to relieve any boredom, bouquets of balloons, flowers, coffees, youth group girls stopping by, you name it. Oh, and I can’t forget Best Chocolate Chip Cookie ever. Even with a zero appetite, I have been making room for bites of this baby. Too bad it’s not iron fortified. Delicious. Thank you all so much.
And if all of this weren’t enough, there is my beautiful Jesus. We have laughed and cried together. He has whispered peace to my heart (Psalm 94:19, Psalm 29:11). He is healing parts of me that I never knew were broken (Psalm 147:3). He has confided in me that this is His greatest good for me right now (Psalm 25:14). His greatest good. That’s pretty sweet. And I kind of have a hunch He’s right.
So, though things aren’t as I had supposed they would be; they are good. Julian of Norwich says, “All shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of things will be well.” And I would have to say, I agree with her. All shall be well and all manner of things will be well, hunchback waddle and soul healing, included.